so much for that...

Well plans changed dramatically last night, and my friend Kelly didn't show up. Unfortunately she had car problems. I feel really bad because she's been having car problems for a while. So we had to reschedule another day. Allen, Angi, and I tried to make it to a 11:15pm showing of Shutter Island, but it was sold out. So with nothing else to do, we went to Edison Diner and ate some food. Josh joined us too. It was great having the crew together again, and I really missed hanging out with my friends. It was a good night.
After the diner, we all went home and Allen had some "girl talk" with Angi. When stuff like this happens, I always get a little mad and jealous. It's like...my boyfriend can have girl talk with his bestfriend, but the conversation has to be so confidential that even I can't join in. I guess she doesn't trust me enough, or maybe I am not considered a good enough friend. I shouldn;t let these kind of small things get to me, but sometimes, I can't help it. Maybe it's because I'm young, or maybe I just crave that kind of friendship with someone. A girlfriend I can share secrets with that no one else can hear. I have a boyfriend who I share these with, but something about a friendship among girls seems different.
Most of my friends are guys. For some reason, I really get along with men more than women. It is probably because I am into things that guys normally like. Things like, video games, sports, no-drama, beer, and boobs. No wonder Allen likes me so much :/

Someday I will find a perfect girlfriend who would want to tell me her secrets and be my BFF. Right now, I have a bunch of guy friends and two girlfriends who don't feel comfortable enough to include me into the sacred female ritual of "girl talk"

But man, I miss it like a drug.