sleepless

So life has been good these past two days. I went from being in a slump, to being content with myself. This happens at times, but in the end, I always manage to pick myself up from the ashes. Yesterday, my new Rutgers friend wanted to hang out with me. That made me very happy since he was ignoring me the other day and I thought he stopped liking me for some stupid reason. He was busy that day, that's all. Yesterday he wasn;t so he journeyed over to Somerset and him and I hung out. Allen was home too, and we all drank beer and played Beatles rockband. Maxx is a pretty awesome guy to hang out with. He's quiet, but funny, and definitely not a jerk. I can't stand jerks. After playing Beatles rockband, we played regular rockband, and then watched Vampire Hunter D. Then we sat around and talked about life. Maxx brought his badass flash drive and we watched Spiderman 3 Rifftrax. It's hilarious because the rifftrax guys make funny commentary during the movie and basically make fun of everything. The best rifftrax ever has to be the one they made for the movie Twilight. Since that movie sucks so much, all the commentary just made everything super funny. We laughed our skinny asses until 4am. Maxx then left and allen and I stayed up until 5am (my newest bedtime)
Today was awesome as well. Allen, Angi, and I went on an epic journey trying to find a ups delivery box. We wanted to find one so Allen could drop off a package of broken DVDs. We couldn't find one, so we gave up, and Angi went to class. Allen and I spent the whole day walking around college ave. We finally found a UPS drop off box, but the package didn't fit. FAIL. So we just jammed the package in the slot thing and left. The UPS man was gonna arrive in an hour anyway, and we were fed up with that package. Allen could care less if he got his money back or not. Atleast we didn't have it anymore. After that, we decided to hop on a bus to the Cook/Douglass campus to explore some more. Sadly, we only had an hour of daylight left, so we didn;t have much time to explore. And since we were lost on Cook/Douglass, I remembered that Maxx lived on that campus somewhere. Allen and I changed our goal to finding maxx's dorm, and we eventually found it. His dorms were called the Starkey apartments, and when we found it (took us a while since it was in the middle of nowhere, near a farm and in the woods) I was like HURRAH! WE FOUND THE STARKEYS! Maxx let us in and we chilled in his dorm for an hour. After spending some awesome time with an awesome friend, Allen and I left and made our way home. We ordered pizza and went to the movies to see Shutter Island. That movie made me really uneasy and unhappy, but I got over that quickly.
Angi and I were hungry so we went to Edison Diner. I had Tiramisu for the very first time and it was wonderful. Allen bought the most delicious Strawberyy milkshake, and everyone was happy. I skipped class today, and it was totally worth it. Tomorrow, I'm gonna do homework all day and deal with my bitchy parents. But atleast I will be back in New Brunswick on Thursday night, so two days in hell won;t be that bad.
Today was also my step-dad's birthday, and I called him. I was very kind and polite to him, which is rare. He seemed really happy too, but in reality, he probably wasn't that happy. He hates it when I go away for a long time. I love it because I feel happier with my friends than being stuck with my miserable parents. I never want to end up like them; miserable and unloving. Hopefully, I never will. With these friends, I think I will be just find.

I am not crazy, and I know that things do get better over time. If you have one bad day, the next day can be amazing and good. I learned how to surround myself with happy people and do things that make me happy. I really do love myself, in an unselfish way. It's just hard to focus on that love in a mean world. If I could, I would change everything and make it better for everyone. Bad sadly, I am only human, and I must make due with what I have. But atleast what I have is something great. And I am never giving it away.